Must! Wear! Maternity! Pants!

It's been awhile, so this could be long!
Here I am almost 19 weeks pregnant, and I have held onto my regular pants for as long as I comfortably could, but the time has come to resign some of them to the closet for a few (hopefully only a few) months. I can still wear most of my jeans due to a great little product I found at Target called the Bee Band. However even with this great little invention I feel as if I am suffocating my child every time I sit down!
At first I thought this pregnancy was EXACTLY like my last one, but it is turning out to be quite different. I am STILL throwing up a few times a week and feeling rather nauseous in the mornings. Last time I was over that phase by 12 weeks. I am also already feeling VERY uncomfortable and not sleeping well. Gus has even been sleeping in the guest room some nights because I move around so much and use so many pillows. (Don't worry, this is only so we can both sleep better. I am still head-over-heels in love with him, but we need good sleep.) With my first pregnancy I did not mind the way my body expanded and changed. I actually thought I looked pretty cute with my basketball belly. This time I feel HUGE and really don't like the way I look or the way any clothes look on me.
However, despite all of these complaints Gus and I already adore this little baby and can't wait to meet him. Sometimes I get wary in my discomfort and sickness and then I feel a little kick or movement and all the complaints are replaced with joy. It is so amazing how those little movements take me by surprise and get my attention every time. I do truly LOVE that part. Thankfully I am starting to feel them more each day. I can't wait until Gus and Elias can feel the baby move. On Wednesday we will have another ultrasound to confirm our suspicions that this is a little boy. We already call him by name and Elias tells everyone that he is having a "baby brudda".
To wrap things up I can only say that God is good and He has blessed me immensely! My husband is amazing (I could seriously go on with a total mushy, gushy post on this point alone.), Elias is such a joy, and this baby is a great unexpected blessing!